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People come in our life for a reason..to give life more meaning.Some are just passing by while others meant to stay.Whichever way, we always have to value that particular person because it’s not always anytime we can have them.People come to share a lesson,an experience..to give joy and sometimes to hurt us and give us pain..Well life is not always fair but that does’nt mean that life can’t be beautiful..No matter what the world is giving you,it’s you who’s making your own destiny..nothing is pre-destined.You cannot blame anybody, even your past experiences and circumstances you’ve been through..What you’ve become is because of what you’ve tried to do and what you’ve done..Because life will just give you back what you have given to it..Life can give you anything and it’s up to you to handle them,and if you get out of control your gonna lose along the way..Life can make you wiser but it can also drive you insane..

its been a while..tagal din bago naulit to..i dont even know what im going to write here at this moment ..after a month long vacation nandito nako ulit..after all the plans ive planned and the hope i have hoped..that vacation taught me a lot of things..gave me a lot of surprises and even shocked me..and now im trying to recover..i’ve cried over and over again..but then crying its my way of releasing the pain..its my way of getting new strenght and will to move on..life..its really unpredictable..sometimes it puzzles me..pero ano nga ba yung buhay??that’s one of the most difficult question that is even impossible to answer para sakin..sa iba parang ang dali ng lahat..i really admire those people who can take life easy..i dont know maybe sometimes im just being so dramatic and emotional towards things..but anyway i know whatever it is that comes my way..its the work of destiny..things happen for a reason..now i’ve learned once you get tired just pause for a while and get some rest..then get up again and move on..continue the journey..carry on!

just recently i’d been into a lot of thinking..i mean real thinking..odd thoughts to be exact..well i dont know but life is givin me a new shot right now..back then i used to believe that once i finish school, pass my board exams and be the nurse that i wanted to be since i was a child,land a job then life would be good..my life would be easy and everything will be fine..now im starting to realize that life does’nt end with what you have dream and wanted..it continuesly  evolve and give you bunch of unexpected surprises..even the ones that you least expect to happen..ask me if im happy after i’ve fought and won the battle..after the hard work..well im not certain..i think being grateful is just  overrated..how could you be grateful when your not even happy..granted you have things that other people dont have and you are what other people are not,but come to think of it..you just deserve it especially if you really did a hard labor its just fair for you to harvest some sweet fruit..then there comes fairness..having the props you earnestly earned..i dont know if what im trying to say here is coming up clear..im also trying to figure it out..im just hurting inside!so much that i cant even explain the pain..i dont know its so sudden and it strucked me right then and there..that thought..until now its still here inside my head..could you imagine i came to work this afternoon for the noon shift i was  riding a taxi sitting at the back not noticing that tears started to fell down from my eyes..it hurt so bad and i cant hold back..i dont care if the driver is giving me that questioning look, all i know is that im hurting inside and its just right to pour out some tears to ease the pain or at least to feel better..and up too work im crying,my eyes were swollen and red..even one patient did asked me if im crying or having some allergies,and the other one asked me if why im upset,but i never mind to answer..i dont know where this life is leading me now..i feel so lost,uninspired,i lack motivation and the will to pursue..i hope tomorrow is going to be a better day..i hope i can figure it out..i hope to see that spark of light..

there are so many things that i wanted to do out of this life..Maybe God has given me this gift because He wants me to do something that im capable of doing..something good of course that will help the well being of other people..my family,my friends,those people that matters to me,and even those around..I’ve gone this far because he planned it..Im here because he wants me to..sometimes im askin question i need not to ask because i already knew the answer..looking back,the hurdles ive gone thru,and all the hardship and lessons gained,i’ve never imagine that i will be able to survive..and now im still here fighting the battle of uncertainties..what would the future bring,where would i be in the future,,life is tough so you’ve got to play it smart,though you stumble and fall,just bounce back and be a better person.

minsan parang napagttripan tayo ng mundo..madalas ang hirap sakyan ng mga pangyayari sa buhay natin..minsan nga parang wala ng pag asa..but you know what?i’ve learned that even how hard things can be..in the end you can still win just have faith..coz faith can move mountain..